Man the devil on my shoulder, in five days I'll be another year older. 19 to 20 damn whys it feel like 60 though? praying to God for direction on which way to go. been fighting these thoughts in my head thinking sometimes it's better off if I'd be dead to pull the trigger for once and for all hear God sound that final warning call yet someone in the distance says "answer your calling find your purpose just know all this pain was worth it" is it worth it though? will I make it through or is it another broken nonsensical promise to look forward to? My head feels so twisted, my shoulders feel so weighed down, all I want is to lay down! Yet God says no don't stay down! "Get back up pick up your crown " yeah but Jesus how do I do survive when jewels keep getting ripped off see alot of people they got me really ticked off...
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rebekahmoses (
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- Comment from author about the poem: This poem was when I was battling depression and fighting between rather to stay with God or go my own way
- Category: Reflection
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Hello there. This piece reminds me so much of the stuff I wrote when I was 19-25 years old and just getting my stuff out of me and onto paper. Ioll tell you right now, that your answer is YEs, it is worth it and I know that you will grow into a brilliant por=et if you keep on writing.rite every day...every time something comes to you, write it down, do not EVER hold back..use the words that you want to use..dont allow anyone to tell you that you eed to edit shit or tone it down...theyre jealous and talentless if they tel you that...I love the part about the crown and the jewels being ripped off. Good shit!!
Thank you so much I really appreciate that and I will continue to keep writing 👌🙂
I can tell that you wanna just let them have it in your writing..DONT HOLD BACK...some of my best poems are BRUTALLY honest and have an X RATING...lol
THANKS REBEKAH ~ For another fine piece of prose / poetry ~ straight form your aching heart. In my experience so far (I'm 33) daily life is often a struggle between SATAN and GOD. Its easy to give into the Devil ~ sex ~ alcohol ~ drugs ~ self harm etc ~ but it never satisfies. God's way is tougher ~ saying no to temptation ~ prayer and sharing with Godly People but in the end it's more satisfying and fo the Ladies the love is alway much more gentle and together. Every Blessing ANGEL ~ Love BRIAN
Great write thanks for sharing
Nicely done. Writing has been a way for me to climb out of depression. Self loathing, worrying and self pity never did a thing. Small wonder. And your path ahead is not filled with all well wishers. Consider each tragic event and contemptible person you encounter a learning experience. A toast to your journey into tomorrow.
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