Living my life in a perpetual state of half sobriety
It's easier to keep going this way.
The alcohol keeps me sane,
The weed keeps me calm.
I've lost so much
I don't have the will to keep going.
I don't have the desire to remember
Because all the memories bring is pain.
Sometimes I forget what sober feels like
And that's fine by me…
If I could never be sober again,
I don't think I'd mind.
I want to forget the disaster
That has become my life.
I don't want to feel
Anything
Ever again.
I've got slices in my wrist,
Words carved on my thigh,
And a self hatred deeper than the ocean.
If I could go to sleep and not wake up
It would be a blessing.
Living my life in a perpetual state of half sobriety
It's the only way for me to keep going.
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Thanks ELPHABA ! From a Young Lady as beautiful as you are this is very challenging. In times of stress we all (if we are honest resort to alcohol ~ drugs and even blood letting) but in my experience the release is only transient. I'm more than ten years older than you and now I find my release in cathartic poetry (like the one you have written) communication with friends (real and in cyber space) and in prayer.. All these avenues of release are open to all of us. and I hope you find some good friends on MPS you can share with. Every BLESSIING ~ HUGS ~ BRIAN
Very descriptive and heartfelt. Hugs.
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