(At six years old my stepfather raped me)
(It destroyed my youth,warped my twenties)
(I attempted suicide in my forties,was basically)
(A shell in my early fifties until my second grandchild)
(Was born,the second I picked him up I felt a massive)
(Weight lift from my shoulders,I cried uncontrollably)
(An energy ran through my body that re-started me)
(My children had never seen me like this before)
(I became the husband and father I should of been)
I was. Born....Raped...Lost....Reborn...
When barely six years old,he walked into your room,
A night that changed your life forever.
From viewing this world in awe and grace,
To only remembering an evil ones face.
For forty six years your life was not your own,
A cloak of despair and a veil of selfishness worn.
A wife and three babies did not bring any release,
Too deep within his own pain and with no real peace.
Every excess in life tasted, tearing out your hair,
When even breath became, way to much to bare.
An end to existence was attempted more than once,
Doctors tried to help,but you just stared with no response.
A light then shined upon you in your lowest darkest hour,
Eight pounds two ounce, brought you a surge of power.
His tears he could not hold when first he held him so,
promise from that second,two new births would now grow.
Four years have now past, it seems so long ago,
Happiness and purpose walked firmly through My door.
My saviour....my grandson...
But just one regret, too long lost to evil....
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Author:
P.H.Rose (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: this is is the first time I have Ever put this down in words. To be honest there was a lot More but I've kept that.....
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Comments9
Tears for you my friend. Picking your grandchild up helped put down the evil you experienced. Thumbs up to you and your courage!
Thank you WBL
There was a
Lot more I could
Of written but
I am going to
At some point
Put it all in
Writing just
Not yet....
Thank you for
Your friendship
I tried to have it read
As a third person
Until the second
To last word..My..
I hope it read that way
Again thank you.WBL
Yes. The message is clear. And, is an important one for those in similar situations to know they can rise above from such a horrible experience...:)
Awesome write thank you for sharing. Sad for what you had to go through.
Thank you so
Much Tony...
Thank you for
Your friendship
Welcome
Thanks for sharing PHR ~ I trust you found it as cathartic writing it as we felt appalled reading it ! But thank GOD it had a pleasant ending. Physical & sexual abuse in ones own Family is the worst abuse of all. Thinking of you and praying and praising ~ Yours BRIAN
Thank you so much for those kind words Brian...they mean a lot
To me...
My eyes filled reading this - I have nothing but the greatest respect for you having fought this and come out of the tunnel.
Thank you Micheal
For that wonderful
Comment...
It means a lot to
Me....
It is so sad that you had to go through this and that you lost so many years at the hands of an evil person. I am so so happy that you finally found your happiness after holding your grandson. What a blessing! You are courageous!
Thank you for that
Beautiful comment
Beautiful Chrissy
It means so much
To me reading it..
I would tear out my heart and crush it like a cigarette butt if it would ease your pain. Now I see you understand
LOVE is the answer, the shame is for the other to wear. all we need is love my brother to conquer evil in this world.WW
Thank you WW.
No truer words spoken.
Love is the only solution
It's a pity more people
Don't practice it...
I am happy for you brother. The subject of abuse in a way does not deserve the beauty of your words. But the resolution is incredible and is truly a miracle.
Thank you Augustus for those
beautiful words. It honestly
Means so much to me....
Wow this is so powerful. Beautifully written! Warriors stand together ✌ xx
Thank you marianne
I hoped you'd like and
Know it... I'll take some
Time later to read your
Other work...
I try to mix up my poems
I don't just post the bad stuff
I like to post fun also
It is a cure for almost anything
... Love and Humour...
That one was only my second poem I usually write songs so thought I'd try something different t 😊 I will be reading through some more of yours thankyou! X
All power to you, I
Have tried to write
A song but it usually
Doesn't work out
For me words just
Flow in my head, I
Do not sculpture
Them as such...
One of my all time
Favourite singers
Was marianne faithful
She had a beautiful voice
And a very pretty look.
Wow- so glad you directed me to your work - so powerful , so raw and so glad you found the key to unlock your despair.
Thank you sue..
I hoped you'd like it
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