We take for granted those we don't appreciate(p)So quick to receive love ..ooohh feed me ..feed me til my desires burn for you...feed me til i acquire the affection i never earned from you.
Til i realize that the love given was never the intention to help me grow but to fill the void on the feeling you should've shown…for another…(p)Yet and still i cover my eyes and shed my soul my intentions are pure but the assurance of reciprocity in you I don't know…(p)So i stay,, saying to myself i never fought before..(p) I've never lost before…(p)
See i'm used to walking away the moment i smell pain….(p)the moment i see signs like blood trail guiding my way to a body in the bathroom with a broken hearted girl who swallowed one to many ..who believed in a serrated knife would the best end to a new beginning…(p)
Wait that took a left..let me track back..when you whispered in my ear saying i'll always have your back..mean while i make my way back(p)...home knowin when i left you alone she’d been calling ya phone hoping you were alone...and you accepted(p)... Knowing the same lips you made love to the unseen part of me ..you now kissing her neck with..(p)...leaving her breathless...leaving me breathless…
But im only mad at myself ...cause i knew what was expected...no commitment..(p) but i gave you a sacred part of me thinking you meant it…(p) but wait let me think ..when climax comes and the kids are disbursed you came to your senses….right?(p)
And so should I … but the woman in me believes that not all are the same...not all play games...not all result in shame(p)....
Naive of me to think that a boy can turn to a man..and father in the same entity...to expect... growth and honesty….honestly what was i thinking...honestly i wasn't even thinking….
Fast Forward we back to the weekend...and i'm back in your bed and we back to freakin...you lying there ...consistently LYING here in the present but it feels too good..(p) and there goes you quick to receive love..feed me feed me….feed me til desires burn for you..til i acquire the affection i never earned from you.. But i learn for from you.so when the real love comes ..i can tell em my love burns only for you….
But let's be honest when it's all said done...i'll still think i'm the one,, sh.t we never committed so i can't say we ever really did it….!!!
-
Author:
Expressionist (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: January 5th, 2017 18:06
- Comment from author about the poem: Its a moment I came to realize the truth about a revisited relationship. My expressions that were never told are all in here. Tears shed,, hurt still felt but I know my truth. Comments appreciated. Keep in Mind: Im not a pro poet but an EXPRESSIONIST.
- Category: Unclassified
- Views: 28
Offline)
Comments3
WELCOME DEJANE ~ Thanks for your first poem ~ it is enigmatic in its presentation ~ but there is a lot of EXPRESSIONISM in it ! Love is always complex and (in my experience) "revisited love" is even more complex. We all have desires and we all crave affection and we expect our love to be reciprocated. As we go through life (I'm 33) we experience agony and ecstasy and we all come close to the edge and endure rejection ~ but can we ever go back ? In essence we all crave commitment and happily ever after ~ it happens to others ~ why doesn't it happen to me ? Men can mature but it happens very slowly (compared with Ladies) but sometimes never ~ as you may have experienced ! The ending is positive ~ please keep your love ~ BURNING. Thanks for caring and sharing ~ BRIAN (UK).
Thank you so much for feedback. I do realize at 25 men are going to progress alot slower(no offense) than women. And it doesnt help with someone as myself open and ready for commitments to be meshed with a soul who is still aimlessly strolling "Boyhood woods"..lol so to speak. It hurts but I definitely feel better laying it out there... I have to know that love has to find you and they'll be no question whether is real..
I see Brian just about covered it all.
so let me just say welcome to MPS
this is very well written and I enjoyed it. ww
Yeah in a nut shell he did. And thank you for the welcome I feel alot of therapy coming soon. I appreciate your feedback as well.
Welcome, love the poem, its a beautiful contrast to a piece that I wrote about a confession
Thank you so much. Ill have to check that out.. It feels so good to release on emotio n.
To be able to comment and rate this poem, you must be registered. Register here or if you are already registered, login here.