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My biggest fear was that our connection wasn't real.
Tongue tied and twisted up in all the things I feel.
I never wanted to be right.
I never wanted it to be a fight.
I just needed to understand how, you were turning me to nothing.
I wasn't the one who turned it into something
But I understand now.
I'm going to leave you alone.
If I see you, I won't bother you and I'll walk the other way homebound.
Deflated with tired frustrations for when you used to sleep, next to me,
Not a peep, faded away in dreams and wrapped around your body
Complete.
Thought I was connecting, when you were really just messing around?
Collecting moments, not the case?
When I can still see your face
My mistake for thinking your heart may have had some space.
If I think of you, I will think of a factory where I was recalled, to have myself taken apart
Disassembly for this mangled, defeated heart
I will wash my clothes and get your smell out of them,
I don't want to fall asleep crying again.
I will throw away your paper place mat butterfly,
That i swore to myself i would keep it to smile, until the day that i die.
I will have your taste out of my mouth.
I will take my love out of your house.
This aching in my chest will subside.
I will forget about your voice, your eyes, your lies.
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J.K.H
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WELCOME MEW ~ Thank you for a very elegant but poignant first poem. It was a challenge to us all about how we treat those we profess to Love. There are so many levels of love and we all seek for True Symbiotic Love when two do actually become one. There are some perfect lines in your poem which say it all "I will throw away your paper mat butterfly ~ That i thought to myself i would keep it to smile ~ until the day i die". We hae all done that ~ but perhaps sometimes regretted it ? You will find MPS a very supportive site ~ Thanks for sharing~ BRIAN (UK). Please check my poems ~ Thanks B.
Wonderfully written and expressed
Wonderfully written! -- phoenix
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