Dark world.

CaitEva

Played with my ego and neglected my soul
so instead of growing I ended up on a pole,
friends were a no show and I was in a dark world
cold and alone,

mixed booze with drugs and carried on going with the flow...
my mind was a mess and my face lost its glow.

I knew I created the flow but just kept going,
binge boozing, closing better things out
and constantly smoking. Soaking up bad energies
mentally exploding, this world I was in shit
I knew I was broken...

Looking back on it now
I know I just needed time for reloading,
should have drank less to keep my stomach from bloating,
smoked less to keep myself from choking,
holding onto a world that wasn't for me
keeping me in a state of unknowing,
exposing my body to snakes and rodents,
provoking negative energies and molding my world which was folding...

I'm somewhat joking because I know I shaped me,
gained valuable life lessons and set myself free,
a bird that was once caged by ego now free to let go.
No more blow up my nose being at an all time low,
just a steady flow ready to let my soul grow.

Life was made to love, If you can't love then just lay back and look above.

  • Author: CaitEva (Offline Offline)
  • Published: January 27th, 2017 20:34
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • Shakerite

    Lara . I'm glad you escaped the jungle and joined the land of the free .
    Saw the poignancy of your message .

    • CaitEva

      Thanks for your comment:) I\'m glad too, always feel blessed

    • willyweed

      I see you have read the bad news
      from front to back and cover to cover you drank to much and played the game of the loose and drunken lover welcome to the club
      but even the most causal observer
      will most certainly agree that~that is not the right for such a beautiful women such as thee ! so in the end if you need a real friend consider ww and just maybe we will really help one each to the other. choose friends wisely something you have failed to do in the pass if you don't care to hear me just say the word and will your wish your dream do come true and I will no longer talk with you but if you will dare I will take much care for I know your state is fragile . I will say no more now I'll head for door and wish sweet dreams 4U. ww please in your good time send me a sign.

      • CaitEva

        :'( that's really kind and i appreciate it so much. i'd like that

      • BRIAN & ANGELA

        Thanks for sharing & caring LARA. I agree that "Life was made to Love" and you have had you share ! But for me LOVING is a shared experience so lay back and think of me sometime ! Love BRIAN. Please check my poems and thanks for adding to my FUSION ~ B

        • CaitEva

          Thank you for your comment 🙂 you're welcome also 🙂

          no worries, i'll check them out! 😀



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