The lonely poet

my angel and kids

My angel and my children often look at  me  with  loving  sparkling  eyes  and  a  big  fat  grinn  that  sometimes  is  enough  to  make  me  act  silly  and  jump  about  and  sing .

But often  when  they  do  it  the reaction  is no so great  my eyes  just  look  straight  through  them  my  minds  some  other  place . 

I  do  not  know  the  reason  why  my  minds  in  such  a  race  I wish  it would  pause  and  stop  and  let  my  sanity  have  some  space . 

When  I  look  at  my  angel  and  children  I feel  so  sorry  for  all  as all  they  do  is  love  me  but its like loving a brick wall . 

Im writing  this  poem  for  them  and  a little  for  myself  just to  somehow  try to tell  them its not me its my mental health .

I really  really  do  love  them  really  love  them  all  I wish  I  could  stop  my  mind  and  break  down  that  mental  wall .

I  am  so  very  sorry  I'm  trying  to  tell  you  all  im writing  this at 4.30  in  the  morning  my  mind  won't  stop  at  all . 

I hope  you  all  still  love  me  and forgive  me  for  my  flaws I really  want  to  return  the  love  and  swing  open  that  mental door  xxxxx    for my kids and mrs

love always   the lonely  poet  

Comments2

  • The lonely poet

    Thanks u and bless u that was a lovely thing to say

  • Goldfinch60

    Such a strong write showing your love for your family, I am sure they know and will love you all the time.



To be able to comment and rate this poem, you must be registered. Register here or if you are already registered, login here.