who am i?

I've taken on the task of writing about my emotions

My thoughts

My feelings

My goals

My aspirations

My sorrows

I feel like I'm in a constant whirlwind of emotions

One day up, one day down

Round, and round, and round, and round

The circular motion of this continuous roller coaster makes me feel dizzy.

Nauseous in fact.

Medication won't help.

I feel empty. I feel like a failure. I feel...

I feel helpless.

Why do I feel sorry for myself?! Why?!

I hate feeling piteous of my own self.

I know I can change my situation … I know I can!

I think I can?

Constantly pray for guidance

For the opportunity to one day discover my purpose in the world

Who am I?

Why am I here?

What is my calling?

Only God knows.

All I want is to feel a glimpse of tranquillity

All I want is to live in my own utopia..

Is that too much to ask for?

I'm teaching myself not to trust in me but to trust in God

I'm drawing myself closer to him. Fighting for a relationship with him.

Seeking words of wisdom from his holy scripture.

Maybe I'll feel a sense of normality.

Seek God within yourself! Seek God within your heart! Within mine!

That's how I know I will gain prosperity.

That’s WHEN I’ll know who I am.