Have You Ever?

Have you ever looked at someone like they painted your world in color?

Have you ever looked into beautiful brown eyes and seen home?

Have you ever watched the light fade from those eyes?

Helpless, speechless, and desperate for the glow to return.

 

Have you ever seen a smile that can change your fortunes in an instant?

Have you ever had to beg and plead for that smile to return?

Have you ever kissed lips that make you feel that you are safe forever?

Have you ever longed for them, never knowing when or if you will kiss them again?

Always wondering what can make them stay forever.

Knowing when that day comes, nothing of this world can hurt you anymore.

 

Have you ever held a hand that you never want to let go of?

Have you ever spent nights wide-awake, making sure it is still in yours in the morning?

Have you ever marveled at how that precious hand fits in yours safely?

Knowing you are her protector and knowing you would die before seeing her hurt.

Have you ever held a hand that makes you feel so completely content?

 

Have you ever loved someone so much that it defies all logic?

Kissing them on the forehead, and promising everything will be okay.

Even though you do not know what tomorrow will bring.

Have you ever wanted to take away every ounce of pain they have ever felt?

Have you ever been at a loss for words, while only searching for any words that could make everything okay?

Have you ever let love get the best of you?

Feeling lost and confused, but knowing that love is the only thing that is real.

 

Have you ever been homesick, and realized that home is 2 eyes and a heartbeat?

Have you ever tried chasing a dream, only to realize that the only dream worth chasing is just a phone call away?

Have you ever re evaluated every decision you have ever made?

Not wanting to live a life in the shadow of fear anymore.

 

Have you ever wished that you only wanted what you couldn’t have?

But find yourself falling harder and harder each day that you have her.

Have you ever had that taken from you so abruptly that you can’t even think?

Have you ever felt powerless, only falling harder, every time she comes back?

Knowing that there is no one that can replace that feeling.

Knowing that even though it might be your demise, you love every second.

  

Have you ever met someone that lights a never-ending fire inside your heart and soul?

Have you ever been deathly afraid that they won’t be there forever?

Tossing and turning every night, dreaming and thinking about what could be.

Have you ever felt such anxiety that the walls start closing in on you?

Knowing the only solution is the comfort of her.

 

Have you ever met someone who has been hurt so badly that it breaks your heart?

Have you ever wanted to repair every wound and make it all right?

Knowing that you can’t be a hero.

Knowing that only she can save herself.

Knowing that moving on with your life would be easier.

Have you ever wanted the pain and the challenge to see the final product?

 

Have you ever tangoed with love and hate?

Only to realize it just makes your passion burn brighter?

Have you ever been so confused that you can’t even function?

Have you ever felt the exuberance of reaching the light at the end of that tunnel?

 

Have you ever heard a voice that can solve all of your problems?

Have you ever felt a presence so soothing that it is almost unfathomable?

Have you ever met a human that makes you feel as though time doesn’t exist?

And that can make your problems fade into the black as though they were never there.

Have you ever been so close to the edge because of that person?

Only to have your sanity restored in less than a single conversation.

 

Have you ever looked at your future, and been so certain of what you need?

Have you ever been crushed while waiting and hoping they realize it too?

Have you ever tried to say everything that you have ever felt?

Only to realize that words cant encompass it all.

Knowing what to do, but not being able to do it.

Have you ever been so convinced that you center your life around these facts?

 

Have you ever wished that coming over meant coming home?

Have you ever felt the anxiousness every time she came into town?

Have you ever needed someone so badly that it hurts?

Have you ever wanted to run away and start fresh?

Not alone, but with the only person that can single handedly bring you to life.

The person that makes getting up in the morning worth it.

Have you ever wanted to be everything she needs?

Have you ever known it might not be enough?

That no matter what you do, you have no control.

 

Have you ever felt what it feels like to be me?