I can feel her grip loosen by the day.. The want in her eyes seems to be disappearing, it's terrifying. Don't know what to do, don't know what to say. Didn't know I could feel so empty but so serenaded in pain. Wanting her, needing her.. Almost dying for her to say my name. She looks at me, but it doesn't feel the same...
I wanted to be the one she misses, the one she remembers or thinks of whenever any song comes on.. Praying I'm the one she's wanting, needing.. But when I open my eyes, I feel afraid. Does she want to be here as bad as I want her to? Is she already gone?
Does her torturer take her back into sick abuse? Did every tight knot she tied when I was at my ends come loose? Don't sink back into what sunk you.. Got you to surface, made you float.. Drug you to shore, breathed life and all of this love into you. Was in not enough...? How could you want more....?
Just because I started there, doesn't mean I stopped. I'll always love you no matter how many times you're in pain, no matter how many times your heart is dropped. Whether its me or not. Sometimes I've been tired.. But please just take notice how I never gave up, no matter how much it took or how hard it got.
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Author:
angeeel95_xo (
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- Comment from author about the poem: This is one of my most deepest and more personal writings.. these feelings were all real and very true.
- Category: Love
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WELCOME ANGEE ~ Thanks for your first poem which is very personal and dripping with pathos. It is (in its own way) very beautiful ~ but also very very sad. In my own experience my relationship with another person (female) can be so so powerful ~ it makes me ill if I am not appreciated and want to die if I am rejected ~ so I can empathise. You live in a beautiful City Austin TX ~ but that is no compensation if you heart is in Hell. This is a very empathetic site so you WILL get some SUPPORT. Thinking of you and praying that your situation will improve ~ Yours BRIAN (UK) Please check my poems ~ Thanks B
Thank you very much! Your opinion, compliments, honesty, and time is very much appreciated! I will definitely check your poems out! I'm extremely grateful for your kindness! God bless!
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