all these words and memories
they are haunting my brain
nothing i can do
im in so much pain
the bullying
the rape, the lies
all the heart breaks and abuse
no one hears me cry
i cant escape
the flashbacks and the names
its hurting me so much
i cant take no more pain
the flashbacks are getting worse
they never ever stop
i cant take the pain away
unless i take it from the top
the bullying is outrageous
i cant escape from it
its inside, outside, every where else
i just cant take it
the rape haunted my mind
it bruised and broke my soul
i cant win anymore
ive got nothing left at all
what am i supposed to do?
i cant win this fight
depressions taken my heart and soul
its time to say goodnight..
anxietys made my heart beat faster
everytime i go outside
its made me want to stay inside
just want to cry
the heart breaks
made me give up on love
i dont believe it anymore
ive had enough
so please god
make me better
i cant stand the pain
thats the point of this letter
dont leave it till too late
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NEVER_LOSE_HOPE/ rachel... (
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I have to be truthful here. Don't pray to god for help and don't wait for him either. You need to get yourself to some sort of counselling. When I was a child in a care home I was abused. I made sure that it would not ruin my life by blocking it out. I was a child and had the mental strength to make that decision. Now you need to stop feeling self pity and feeling like shit and get angry and tell yourself you ain't living like this anymore. Go look in the mirror and see what you have become then get the hell out of dodge. I hope you can do this?
I have to be truthful here. Don't pray to god for help and don't wait for him either. You need to get yourself to some sort of counselling. When I was a child in a care home I was abused. I made sure that it would not ruin my life by blocking it out. I was a child and had the mental strength to make that decision. Now you need to stop feeling self pity and feeling like shit and get angry and tell yourself you ain't living like this anymore. Go look in the mirror and see what you have become then get the hell out of dodge. I hope you can do this?
Yes God does answer prayers . He feels your pain . Reach out and ask for strength . Ask for support . And ask for the empowerment to forgive those that abuse you . Give faith a chance to grow and you will be changed .
You have answers in last line of your poem
"'Dont leave it till too late
just get up and learn to face"
there is always someone who is on your side who has been through the same crap always someone you can trust find that person and you will find your prayers answered
Ohhhhhhh RACHEL ~ I hate to hear you still feeling so so sad ~ we all care for you (read the lovely comments) and some of us are praying for you each day ! There is a GOD and he hears and will answer you Prayer for Release. Thinking of you ~ Spiritual Hugs ~ Your Praying Friend ~ BRIAN
Don't leave it 'til too late - take the little steps, until you feel ready in yourself to go to Counselling. You should be ready soon, as you're comfortable enough now to share in writing (behind a farce); it's just a slightly higher hurdle to share verbally face-to-face. You haven't given up on love, you've just been very badly let down by someone you trusted. Been there and done it within my family. You've been strong enough to get to here, so you CAN go all the way through. There WILL be good days and bad too.
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