My Battle with my mental health

P.H.Rose

        My Battle with my mental health....

 


Mental health, two words that do not sit side by side.
I fight you each and every day. Sometimes you win, most times I lose.
A struggle to rise from pit or quarter.
Weighed down with purpose and expectation.
False confidence a mask I wear so well.
That non can see what's behind its dark veil.
Ambivalent and non plus, two words that tell,
This days story, of my own living hell.
But non can hurt so as this cape of anger.
That wraps around me, then all self control is lost.
Sickness you say, well a sickness it is.
No pill, no liquid will quench its blood lust.
Unlike the church bell that rings to signal events.
Mental illness attacks with no warning nor sound.

But Tomorrow may not be such a bad day....

  • Author: P.H.Rose (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: June 11th, 2017 17:43
  • Comment from author about the poem: Been away working at sons new Home in Newcastle... Just got home.... Going to catch up on Some of the wonderful work On Here....
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  • Augustus

    Seems like it is so scary you are holding back a bit, from unleashing that anger. Hope it helps to write. Medication can help if you find the right doctor hugs.

    • P.H.Rose

      If I didn't hold back
      I would probably be
      Sectioned..
      Thank you Augustus
      Mental health is an issue
      Not many will discus
      Though through the
      Grace of god etc...

      • Augustus

        Hold back in the poem about the anger.

      • Goldfinch60

        Good write, tomorrow will be a better day.

        • P.H.Rose

          Thank you GF60

        • Poetic Dan

          ... You've left me nearly unable to write.
          Only thing I can offer is my writing I post,

          If we are all one
          The demons we fight
          No matter if age
          Will one day
          Take flight

          If not, we can
          Leave our children
          Without the ones we do.

          Hope that makes sense, thanks for your write.

          • P.H.Rose

            Thank you DJJABS
            That makes perfect sense
            And beautiful also..

            • Poetic Dan

              Inspired by you
              Created by me

              Music has helped me deal with childhood ptsd, I think they would say. All I know is listing, writing and now in the last few years try to play has help me.

              3 years ago someone played me a song by medicine for the people, called "Aloha ke Akua" the words in this truly resonated with me (as did your writing)

              I've always lived by my word and ones that inspire me, when I got snapped out of my hip hop (that gives my front to do my job) something changed.
              A slow process but depression and other such things never go away, we just find better tools for training demons that like to play in our heads.

              Sorry if I've gone, don't give up the search my friend.



              • P.H.Rose

                Thank you
                Brother from another mother
                We see each other
                In a very crowded room
                No words spoken
                Only WE see the gloom
                It's talons are sharp
                It tears into my skin
                Doesn't want my day
                To ever begin.....
                If you get a moment
                Please read my poem
                "I was"
                " born, raped, lost, reborn "



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