emotional girl

I WILL NOT GIVE IN



My music blasts while memories from the past come flowing in

   I try my hardest not to cry, but then ask myself why

   why have I tried so hard to keep these feelings inside

 

These feelings I have tried so hard to hide can't confide

   and it's slowly killing me inside

   but I'm not going to let you see me cry

 

No I'm not going to give into these lies

   I'm not going to watch myself die on the inside

   because I'm not done writing all my lines

 

I have not yet lost because I have fought

   to keep what's left alive away from what's on the inside

   I intend to live because if I give in this was all for nothing

 

I am stronger now than I was then

   I'm fighting my fight and still continue to live

   my battle is not yet over, but I will continue you until I have my disclosure

Comments5

  • onepauly

    lots of meaning

  • BRIAN & ANGELA

    Love the video SISTER - for me it tells it just how it is. Each verse in your elegant (but sad ) Poem takes us "inside depression"" BUT there is a RESOLVE - AMEN ! In your comment you say that your resolve (to beat Depression) come from a closer Walk with God -|AMEN ! I my experience that is the ONLY answer I'm praying for you 24/7 and you can pray for me ! I work in a Vocational College | but I only have a Year by Year Contract | not a Tenure ! I want to get married and start a Family but I need a secure JOB ! Some job are advertised for September 2017 and i have applied ! Please pray i will be successful -| AMEN Thanks HUGS BRIAN

    • emotional girl

      Thank you so much! I pray that everything works out.

    • Candlewitch

      heavy duty poem which I strongly relate to. thanks for posting it! I, too suffer from depression. which was brought on by childhood abuse and sexual abuse in my early teens. you express yourself well!!!

      *hugs, Cat

      • emotional girl

        Thank you so much! I'm sorry that you had to go through that, no one should. I hope you have found peace with that and that everything works out.

      • lost-but-not-broken17

        I struggle with depression really bad.. It a fight every day just to get out of bed. Even if you think you're not, you're very strong. You keep fighting even when you want to give up. You don't give in, you don't let the world win. To me that's the biggest strength you can have.

        • emotional girl

          Thank you so much! I hope that it gets better for you, i will be praying for you.

        • lost-but-not-broken17

          I struggle with depression really bad.. It a fight every day just to get out of bed. Even if you think you're not, you're very strong. You keep fighting even when you want to give up. You don't give in, you don't let the world win. To me that's the biggest strength you can have.



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