Why can't I stay?

Primrose

Why can't I stay?

When will the pain go away?

when will the burden you can't see,

be taken from me?

Will it ever go away?

Will the pain always stay?

Will I ever be free,

from what imprisons me?

I just want to stay

I don't want to go away

it's not okay

It's getting hard to handle

i weep like a burning candle

 

It's hard being me

i want to be free

 

you get to meet new people they say

but I don't want to today

not today, not tommorw, not ever

I like my friends here

they work fine for me

 

moving was fun for awhile

and then I moved here

i made great friends

and met a cute boy

(we may go on a date!)

but then I will move

and Leave them behind

 

"there are many fish in the sea"

yeah, so?

i've met enough for me. 

 

I've always said moving fine

pretened it doesn't hurt

and they believed me

 

of course it hurts!

just look past my fake smile

don't you see?

i've cried myself to sleep

wishing we'd stay

dreading the move

11 months away

 

my friends here say

"we have a year left, that's plenty of time."

but they don't see it like i do

they time flies by fast

just wait

youll see

and they're will be 

the less happy me

 

by the time I have to move

the year has felt like weeks

its gone by too fast

we couldn't make it last

it was a blast 

 

but now I'll just cry

but not where you'll see me

ill cry myself to sleep

with my cat there beside me

and in the morning 

I'll look

as happy as ever

 

why can't I stay 

when will the pain go away

when will the burden you can't  see 

be taken from me? 

  • Author: Primrose (Offline Offline)
  • Published: July 21st, 2017 02:32
  • Comment from author about the poem: My next move will be my 13th and I am 15 years old.
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 42
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  • Hopey_xx

    It must be so hard for you to move away from what you know so often. A powerful write, keep writing it out. And welcome to Mps!

  • BRIAN & ANGELA

    WELCOME PRIMROSE (LOVELY NAME ) Thanks for you first poem ~ very elegantly penned but a very sad lament for one so young ! 13 moves and you're only 15 ~ that is TWELVE too many ! It's easeir for Adults because they make Friends at work etc but its a lot harder for Teens (I know !) Thanks for caring & sharing ~ Thinking of you ~ BLESSINGS ~ Yours BRIAN (UK)

    • Primrose

      Thank you



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