As fast as lightening, everything is rushed
Delirious state, the world around me is hushed
A sigh of relief as the toilet is flushed
A jubilant moment and then I am crushed
I cant break the cycle of this daily affliction
I'm living my life with a fucking addiction

The first step to recovery is admitting what's wrong
I have and i do, and I ache being strong
But this infirmity consumes me still, it is lifelong
And today I'm not so sure if i can go on


  • Author: Renzi Mars (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: July 22nd, 2017 07:19
  • Comment from author about the poem: Struggle
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 50


  • Louis Gibbs

    Your affliction is one to which I cannot relate, only observe and sympathize with, and this I do, dear Renzi. You are strong and inspiring to all with an affliction ... a role model to all who know you, and what you go through. Hang in there for all of us, as well as yourself!

  • FredPeyer

    Renzi, you are such a good writer. That last line in the first stanza says it all. In one line you were able to say what addiction is all about. And the whole poem is one cry for help.
    All your friends here are rooting for you. Louis said it so well in his comment: You are a role model and when we read about your daily struggle, we are right there beside you to give you strength.
    For me, there is also a selfish thought involved: Hang in there, keep on writing, your poems have become my morning fix!

  • onepauly

    you have many years ahead of you. some people don't have that.

  • burning-embers

    A living poet bares their pain
    frustration in words read again
    exposing the soul remaining sane
    another day in life's funny old game
    good one Renzi

  • malubotelho

    What a fortunate event it should be if we could stop suffering.
    They say; the poet pretend so much, pretend so completely, that even pretend being pain, the pain that he truly is feeling. I know it is not your case. This is more my case when sometimes I think I feel kind of good suffering.

  • Hopey_xx

    You've got so much strength Renzi. On your bad days have a read of some of your recent poems and remind yourself of that. Hang in there, and remember that we're here for you!

  • Heather T

    Sending my love to you. You are so brave and inspiring to share your deep heart with us.

  • Goldfinch60

    You have taken the first step and that is always the hardest to take.
    I do hope that you can take the next step and start walking in your life.
    Remember you are going on holiday soon, that must be something to look forward to.

  • Mugsdaddy

    Great show of strength you are the only one that defeat you. And you my dear sound much like a winner so pick your battle and kick some serious ASS.

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