The word "anxiety" is not a
term I use lightly.
It's a huge part of my life
daily and nightly.
And then panic creeps in
for no reason at all.
But I do know I have a choice-
to lay down or stand tall.
So much easier said than done.
I have been brave and weak to this foe.
But for my family I refuse to
stand down and lay low.
I don't know why God chose me
to endure this kind of hell.
Pondering why there is no end to this.
Full of tears my eyes swell.
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A fine write. I don't agree with the last verse though. Could it be that WE 'choose' it somehow. Or if we do not 'choose', we may have some psychological thing, or be of a 'nervous disposition', or something like that. A medical condition of 'panic attacks' maybe?
Yes I have panic disorder. I definitely didn't choose it. Thanks for your comments.
WOW ~ THANKS CHRISTINA ~ for a very confessional new Poem. Elegant (as expected) in its structure ~ four balanced Quatrains with a classic xaxa xbxb etc rhyme pattern . Smooth to read & recite ~ difficult to fully comprehend ! Your threshold to PANIC & ANXIETY is very low and this obviously affects your demenour and self-esteem. However it fuels your resolve and this is your strength ! GOD gives us all challenges in our lives ~ BUT ~ He assures us in the Scriptures that "His Grace is sufficient for us !" I find day-by-day overcoming my deficiencies augments my strengths ~ this is my Prayer for You ! Spiritual Hugs ~ BRIAN Please visit my Pyramid ~ Thanks B.
Thanks for an encouraging and uplifting and non-judgmental review! Thanks for the prayers. Hugs-Christina
Panic asserts its presence at most unexpected times and your finely written description in this moving poem reminds us to stand firm and not "lay low" -- thanks for sharing a difficult subject Christina.
Thank you so much Fay for an uplifting review! I appreciate it.
Great expression here Christina.
Thanks WBL!
I only ever had one panic attack - horrible. Good writing.
Thanks so much for your kind words! I wouldn't wish a panic attack on anyone. Hope you never have another. Thanks again!!
Under this particular circumstance, it is OK to be stand down in front of your family. They are your support. If you even could not be yourself at home, then when and how could you beat this monster. What I did was to explain to my family my situation, so when I get weird, they know what is going on.
There will be an end, just be patient. Cry is fine, angry is OK., but do not give up.
Well done.
I so much appreciate your in depth comments without judgement or criticism. Giving up is not on my list of things to do. But it has been a long road. Thanks again!!
Yes. It will be a long run, that is why you feel exhausted and despair. Enjoy every moment you can. For me, taking a long walk, write down my feeling, talking to my friend help a lot. Best.
Anxiety is not something I have ever suffered from but I have known those who do. An awful affliction and you've captured the turmoil so well - great work.
Thanks Michael for the comment. I really appreciate it!!
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