This, I'm learning in retrospect ...
Choose carefully, consciously,
The time to challenge and engage
The dark side of your nature ...
An entrenched aspect of which
You wish to conquer.
It will rebel, fight to the death your
Attempt to release and overcome it,
And in every way it can
Will do you harm ...
Try to destroy you!
Be prepared for suffering
In the hideous process
As I suffer now.
Not fun!
Had to be done!
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Author:
Louis Gibbs (
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- Comment from author about the poem: In last week's final posting, I announced my rejection of the deeply entrenched rage carried over from my childhood. Should have known! It's been brutal.
- Category: Reflection
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Comments7
Words so true
Facing the childhood
I thought I'd done mine 6 months ago
But today I see I'm still a long way on that road to go.
Your words give me strength to face tomorrow.
Thank you so much, Dan. It's not an easy thing, getting past childhood trauma, is it. You give me reason to keep writing it out!
May the cycle continue until we're healed ourselves and give courage to others.
Louis, I love the way you state your suffering because unresolved matters from your childhood. Like Angelica said reading your poem help us cope with our own problems. Thank you for doing so. I'm at this process too of going back and put the flashlight on my past to see what I left behind that needs to be reaccessed and brought to light. It is hard for me because I don't feel the damage. It is like if it is there I'm like in comma because I don't see it. I will keep looking though. Thanks again
Thanks for joining in the conversation on this important matter to so many of us, Malu. I appreciate your comments.
Welcome
Thinking of you Louis - keep writing,
Writing it out is a good way to deal with it. I appreciate your response, Michael.
Louis, while I am one of the lucky ones with no ghosts in my closet, I can instinctively understand where you and others are coming from. While I may not be able to help, I want you all to know that I do feel for you and sincerely hope you will break free of these chains. And I am convinced that writing is the best therapy! So keep on writing, we will be behind you 100%!
Appreciate your kind words and support as always, Fred! I am determined to break free. It's a struggle.
Facing our demons is the way to freedom and as this verse admits this is a hard lesson to learn Louis - "fury hurts most those who to anger are prone".
I had not heard that wise quote, Fay. Thank you for your caring comment. Those demons don't die easy!
I think its true, we can bury our bad childhood memories while we're too young to understand them. And then somehow they resurface when we're older for re-examination. It's a fine art of leaving behind the hurt and still learn from it. All too often the pain is so strong that it can overwhelm us and recovery will still be elusive. Understanding will come when we're ready to understand. ; )
Kind words of wisdom, AP, and I thank you for them. I'm afraid memories of my childhood are gone forever, and for the best. I couldn't handle it back then, and learned to dissociate to survive. No point in resurrecting all that now ... just want to release the residual deep anger carried forward from it. I'm making progress, but it doesn't want to let go without a hell-of-a fight!
And a better man your are now Louis. ; )
I think with many of us on MPS we find that writing helps us to cope with our lives. There will be an end to your suffering, it may be hard but looking forward is the cure.
Indeed there will be an ending, to which I look forward. And it will be worth the struggle. Thanks for the support, Goldie.
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