Fake happy face

Devilsadvocate

I can be in a room full of people

And still feel alone

Be the life of the party

But i just want to go home

 

You may see my body 

But my soul isnt there

My heart just cries out

For someone to care

 

I need someone to talk to

But i push them away

I keep myself busy

But the thoughts all still stay

 

At night i cant sleep

I stay up and cry

Cant rid of this feeling

Believe me i try

 

My friends havent noticed

They dont seem to see

The change i can feel

Has happened to me

 

They dont see that im lonely

I hide it well i guess

The people around me

Cant see im a mess

 

All those around me

Seem happy, content

But this isnt the way

That my life was meant 

 

I watch other people

And see how happy they are

Ill get there some day

But tell me how far?

 

I envy the people 

That are living there life 

While im wondering whats quicker

Pills or a knife

 

I know deep inside

These feelings are wrong 

But i cant help but wish

I could be gone

 

Well i guess that's the way

That depression goes

You get good at hiding

So nobody knows

 

So i will write away my troubles 

In a place i feel safe

And continue to wear

My fake happy face.

  • Author: Devilsadvocate (Offline Offline)
  • Published: September 20th, 2017 13:38
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 64
  • User favorite of this poem: Christina8.
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Comments3

  • BRIAN & ANGELA

    WELCOME FRIEND ~ Thanks for your first Poem ~ It is well written full of Rhyme & Rhythm but such a sad story. I trust you found it cathartic ! MPS is a very empathetic site and you will get a lot pf LOVE & SUPPORT so please please put those PILLS & KNIFE away NOW ! Thinking of you and Praying for you ~ Yours BRIAN ~ Please check my Poems~ OK.

    • Devilsadvocate

      Thankyou, and thankyou for the welcome - I will be sure to check yours out too 💛

      • Devilsadvocate

      • Christina8

        First of all, welcome to MPS. Please know you are not alone in the face of depression. I must say, this is a really well written poem and you conveyed yourself really well. I hope you keep writing because we will keep encouraging! Thanks for sharing such a heartfelt poem. Stay strong!

      • ron parrish aka wordman

        it`s time to get out of the house



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