Mugsdaddy

Last Act

Darkness grows inside of me it's purpose still unknown, I thought my heart would hold it back but now I see it's grown 

My friends are driven away from me by hateful unkind words,  my cries for help and Nightmare screams forever go unheard 

My brain is filled with Terror the things it wants to do, the sharpened blade my bloodied hands as I look down on you 

A fever it takes over as my mind begins to swim,  I feel like I could murder on much less than a whim 

A bloodlust you could call it but I'd have to say you're wrong,  it's an urge that's laid inside of me just now it's growing strong 

The people who walked passed  me each would fill my need, I hate their smiling faces I want them all to bleed 

My heart's now filled with Darkness the final battles lost,  the death of so many others that will be the cost 

A mother and her child or an old man and his wife,  the darkness it has beaten me it demands I take a life 

My blades have all been sharpened it's now time to decide,  be it Defiance or compassion I committed suicide 

Comments4

  • Candlewitch

    this is so very poignant and well written!

    *hugs, Cat

    • Mugsdaddy

      Thank you for the save and the great comment
      Big hug
      Mugs

    • FredPeyer

      Mugsdaddy, you not only wrote an incredible poem, you also asked an incredible question. Killing oneself in order not to kill somebody else seems like an act of compassion at first. But now I am not so certain. No definite answer yet, am still thinking.

      • Mugsdaddy

        You just made my day
        Mugs

      • Goldfinch60

        This is a great right with an unanswerable question.
        Suicide is such a painful act for others, my wife's best friend committed suicide before I knew her, we have been married for 36 years, and still it upsets her.

      • Santita

        This is a strong, poignant write, Mugsy. Excellently put together. I could feel the pain in this one. I appreciate the thought that went into this, dear.



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