Who I Am. Poem, by ThatThugUnicorn, at My poetic side

When trying to run from the past

You change who you are.

You become someone who you used to despise.

Some people might say that they never really changed much,

But they don't get what it is like to not be liked.

Or to be in a group where you don't fit in anywhere.

I know what it is to be at the bottom,

And it sucks ass.

When you have to go eat by yourself,

Or hearing no you can't play with us,

And even losing your only friend because your not "cool".

So I started to push everyone away.

I didn't care how much they tried to help,

And i didn't care so why should they.

I didn't want it I wanted to be the loner I felt I should be,

Like everyone said I should be.

So that's what I did.

I started to smoke weed, have sex, and drink,

And i didn't care the outcome was.

I just wanted to leave for a little,

And go to a place where

I knew I was wanted be more than just family.

At one point I was on top.

I was good in every possible way,

I tried in school, I went to church,

But now look at me

I'm a bitch to everyone

Barely passing in school

Now I have become someone I hate.

And that is just who I am.

dusk arising February 19th, 2018 01:40
I found that in running from my recent past i became what i was before and was welcomed back into my real world. I suppose it all depends upon how you look at life.
BRIAN & ANGELA February 19th, 2018 10:17
WELCOME FRIEND ~ Thanks for your first POEM ~ WOW some poem ~ some confession and a baring of your soul ! I have faced the UPS & DOWNS of LIFE so I can empathise ! Stanza 1 ~ A decision to change to become more popular ? S 2 ~ "Loneliness" is the most difficult part ! S 3 ~ The decisions we make to be part of the "in crowd" all have their price ! Men feed on Girls who crave LOVE ~ but they never give LOVE or RESPECT in return and leave you empty because you have played your TRUMP CARD ! S 4 ~ I too love to be ON TOP ~ School ~ Church ~ Family are all very important and spheres in which we CAN SHINE ~ BUT when it all goes PEAR SHAPED ~ one SELF-WORTH turns to SELF LOATHING and loss of SELF-ESTEEM ! Well FRIEND you are at the BOTTOM NOW and the only way is UP ~ You will find MPS is a very empathetic site ! I am now working (which is much less bitchy than SCHOOL !) and I have a STEADY GF (Angela) who support me ~ so I am on the UP so can you be ! Every Blessing ~ Thinking of YOU ~ BRIAN (UK)

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