sylviasearcher

An Apology

To whom it may concern.

Sorry seems a sorry little word.

Not big nor grand enough

To convey what should be heard.

 

I have failed you.

Even though I dreamed that I was kind

Deep inside

A cruel and callous heart I find.

 

Who created this monster?!

The noone, noone can bear to see?

No pointing finger needed now.

I know the guilty one is me.

 

No excuses now.

Of nothing to noone, of bruises and shame.

Out of control.

The sinner. My name.

 

I wish I could turn back time.

And believe in myself again.

I rusted up the wheels with tears

Trapped at the hour of pain.

 

Cruelty was not my intention.

In fact I believed it was love.

Here I go again with excuses.

Falling, I pray to above.

 

Forgive me.Those I have broken.

Forgive me. The life that I lie.

Forgive me. For not disappearing.

Forgive me! I ask that you try.

 

 

Comments8

  • Lorna

    I think we've all felt this sometimes........... and wish we could fix something we did. It's a great apology..........

    • sylviasearcher

      Thanks Lorna. It's hard when it is so far away from who you wanted to be.

      • Lorna

        There's always tomorrow.............. move on............

      • Daveyboyz

        What a great poem, and once we realise what pathetic and flawed creatures we are we can start to address this. Every evil screams "I am good"

        • sylviasearcher

          But I found all my good screamed I am evil

          • Daveyboyz

            That I don't know so much about...but since I am offering up cliches maybe "no good deed goes unpunished" is appropriate. Hope you are feeling OK now.

          • 2 more comments

          • onepauly

            I think daveyboyz has it
            with, once we relies what pathetic and flawed creatures we are.

          • sylviasearcher

            I guess I never wanted to realise I was pathetic and flawed.... Maybe I can cope with flawed...

          • Just-A-Dude

            I understand what you mean by the sentiments in my poem after reading yours. Great stuff and very honest. We all have the dark side, flawed.

            • sylviasearcher

              Well I lived in denial of my dark side for a long time... Used just think that I had bad luck... Now I know I made bad decisions

            • Maxine Smith

              Completely relatable, to so many, for so many different reasons. A poem that speaks to everyone.
              Learning from mistakes, using them to become better is key. An apology is the perfect first step.

              • sylviasearcher

                Thanks I hope that I am learning!

              • tepo

                We can't find a solution until we recognise a problem
                Having said that
                It is a pretty broad apology
                Hope you can be careful enough not to go from one extreme to the other
                We all need to apologize from time to time
                Does not make us evil
                Great write

                • sylviasearcher

                  Thanks Tepo.

                  I know what you mean about extended, sometimes I feel my existence is an apology!

                • Goldfinch60

                  Asking for forgiveness is the first step to going into a better life. You have seen the light, go towards it.

                  • sylviasearcher

                    Like a lotus I am eternally growing in the dark towards the light!



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