I watched
The candle
Burn
Melt on my wrists
The wax falling
Pain
Twisting in my mind
That’s the sign
That I can actually
Let out
I see
My hands
Are bleeding
My tissue fell out
The blade
Dripping with blood
Blood red
They say control
But I say
I can’t conceal
That feeling
That leaves me insane
I glanced
How my life was falling
Apart
Into pieces of memories
That I once cherished
I’m sorry mum
I left u in pain
Im such a burden
That u have born
A trash like me
The note
Said
Sorry
Everyone who loved me
I left u in such agony
Cribbing pain
But I’m fine
It’s the answer
Right
I’m in the hospital
I thought I was dead
But
He painful truth
Is
I’m still alive
With my monsters
Eating me
Alive
Why I should
Survive
With my
Demons
When I tried to drown them
People let them rise again?
So I lived
In unspoken pain
Can’t I just drown in the rain
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Author:
Siena (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: June 26th, 2018 02:24
- Comment from author about the poem: It tells my story of self harm and my horrible depression
- Category: Sad
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Comments2
This poem spoke to me. On a deep level. My poetry is blunt and honest. Yours is beautiful and honest. I'll be looking forward to your next poem.
Aw thx for ur nice words I read ur poem too and it’s beautiful
WELCOME FRIEND ~ Thanks for sharing your first poem. It is well written with five well spaced verses full of feeling and rhythm. It is a SAD poem and your stress from depression is revealed from verse to verse ! V 1. Pain & its release V 2. Cutting & Bleeding is one way to release your Depression V 3. Life falling apart and an apology to your MUM ~ in my experience when we self harm we always hurt not only ourselves but the ones who love us most ! v 4. We always leave a note to say "I'm Sorry" V 5. Not dead or dying ~ this poses a dilemma ~ and you final lines are a cry from your wounded HEART ~ awesome !
"So I lived ~ In unspoken pain
Can't i just drown in the rain ?"
When we look bacjk on our teenage angst ~ we can all empathise ! However in my experience (I'm twice your age !) ~ as we mature and take more control of our own lives things do improve ! Thanks for sharing ~ I trust you found it cathartic. This is a very caring and empathetic site and you will get support ~ Yours BRIAN (UK) Please check my poems ~ The way MPS works is that we read & comment on each others POEMS ~ OK Thanks B !
Aw thx for the nice words I hope I can find some support in this website 🙂 I will write more in the future
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