The unspoken words

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I watched

The candle

Burn

Melt on my wrists 

The wax falling 

Pain 

Twisting in my mind

That’s the sign

That I can actually 

Let out 

 

I see

My hands 

Are bleeding 

My tissue fell out

The blade

Dripping with blood

Blood red

They say control 

But I say 

I can’t conceal  

That feeling

That leaves me insane 

 

I glanced 

How my life was falling 

Apart 

Into pieces of memories 

That I once cherished 

I’m sorry mum 

I left u in pain 

Im such a burden 

That u have born 

A trash like me

 

The note

Said 

Sorry 

Everyone who loved me 

I left u in such agony 

Cribbing pain 

But I’m fine 

It’s the answer 

Right 

 

I’m in the hospital 

I thought I was dead

But

He painful truth

Is 

I’m still alive 

With my monsters 

Eating me 

Alive 

Why I should 

Survive 

With my 

Demons 

When I tried to drown them 

People let them rise again?

So I lived 

In unspoken pain 

Can’t I just drown in the rain 

  • Author: Siena (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: June 26th, 2018 02:24
  • Comment from author about the poem: It tells my story of self harm and my horrible depression
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 22
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  • Monotonous Dredge

    This poem spoke to me. On a deep level. My poetry is blunt and honest. Yours is beautiful and honest. I'll be looking forward to your next poem.

    • pessimismpoet

      Aw thx for ur nice words I read ur poem too and itโ€™s beautiful

    • BRIAN & ANGELA

      WELCOME FRIEND ~ Thanks for sharing your first poem. It is well written with five well spaced verses full of feeling and rhythm. It is a SAD poem and your stress from depression is revealed from verse to verse ! V 1. Pain & its release V 2. Cutting & Bleeding is one way to release your Depression V 3. Life falling apart and an apology to your MUM ~ in my experience when we self harm we always hurt not only ourselves but the ones who love us most ! v 4. We always leave a note to say "I'm Sorry" V 5. Not dead or dying ~ this poses a dilemma ~ and you final lines are a cry from your wounded HEART ~ awesome !

      "So I lived ~ In unspoken pain
      Can't i just drown in the rain ?"

      When we look bacjk on our teenage angst ~ we can all empathise ! However in my experience (I'm twice your age !) ~ as we mature and take more control of our own lives things do improve ! Thanks for sharing ~ I trust you found it cathartic. This is a very caring and empathetic site and you will get support ~ Yours BRIAN (UK) Please check my poems ~ The way MPS works is that we read & comment on each others POEMS ~ OK Thanks B !

      • pessimismpoet

        Aw thx for the nice words I hope I can find some support in this website ๐Ÿ™‚ I will write more in the future



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