Uncertainty at every corner
Nightmares in place of my dreams
Plaguing me at every hour
It's never ending it seems
So tired of living a life
Where everything is scary
Just barely holding on
Can't wait for me to be me
No one to truly understand
What it's like to live with this fear
Day in and day out I'm screaming inside
But there's no one around that can hear
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Christina (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: My trials with panic disorder
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Emotive write, I do wish there is something that I could do to stop your screaming inside.
Me too, thanks for caring. Always appreciate your kind replies!
Love how I can feel the emotion with your words very beautiful!
Thanks so much, I appreciate it!
Welcome!
This test of life is just for you
Now we know and hear them too
Next time they tell you what to do
We'll be there to heal the wounds
Just keep on writing it's all true!
I'm definitely saying this to me and you
Thank you for sharing what you go through
Thanks so much Dan. I appreciate your kind words. And the poem!
A fine write Christina. I experience it minimally. It's to do with the mind. Prayers needed for a sound mind. Not 'unsound' in an unbalanced way though.
Yes - I do wish I would stop singing, to stop you screaming inside! heehee.
Thanks Orchidee! I do pray but prayers only help so much. Haven't found the cure yet. I appreciate your input!
I understand Christian. We may sometimes have to do something, or not do something, as well as the prayers
HI CHRIS ~ trying to catch up with the postings of my MPS Family. This is very frank ~ I trust you found it cathartic. The older Students (25+) on my "Access to Higher Education Course" (about 30 per annum) have a range of apprehensions. In our pre-course 1 to 1 Counselling Sessions they use many of the expressions in your poem ~ which i trust you found cathartic. Uncertainty ~ Nightmares ~ Living a Lie ~ Just holding on ~ No one understands ~ Living with fear ~ Screaming inside ~ No one listens or understands etc. Despite this in my experience (to date) none have failed to start the Course (1 or 2 years). One of the reasons is that they are starting on a "Tailor Made Course" which they really want to do ! Also the fellowship and interaction of their Tutors & Felloiw Students. They are starting again at 28 to pick up where they left off @ 18 for many reasons ! I hope and pray that you will be able to resume your Nursing Soon even if only on a part-time basis ~ I believe that would make a big difference to how you feel ? Every Blessing ~ Thinking of YOU and Praying for YOU ~ Love BRIAN & ANGELA I am pleased you have had so many positive and supportive replies ~ MPS is a very empathetic FAMILY ~ We all lift you UP ~ B & A
Thanks so much for your everlasting support and positive comments. I really appreciate your feedback but I have to be able to drive to go to work. Thanks for your uplifting sentiments and prayers. Hugs to you and Angela--Christina
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