Exposed to fighting as a child
ramped up my fight or flight response
Never can unsee what I've seen
Or unhear what I've heard
The pain is raw; the unknown is terrifying
What I would give for a relaxing day
Free from the pitiful restraints
Of the one they call "Panic Disorder"
Take me away to a heaven-like place
If not just for a few hours
I just need to relax and calm
I don't know what that is anymore
My soul screams out for solace
There is no where to turn
There is no place to hide
I'm the only one that can save me
I get a fresh taste of hell every day
You may think I'm being dramatic
Walk a few miles in my shoes
And then tell me how your day went
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Author:
Christina (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: June 29th, 2018 00:02
- Comment from author about the poem: A free verse that I don't normally do but spurred on by suggestion.
- Category: Sad
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Comments5
Well, I came across a church which gives, among other things, 'Peace Treatments'. Don't know what they do exactly. Sounds good though!
Thanks Orchidee!
Christina,
You’re not being dramatic at all!
Keep fighting and I’ll keep praying for you!
~Laura~
Thanks Laura, I appreciate it!
I ALSO SUFFER FROM PANIC DISORDER,YOU EXPLAIN IT PERFECTLY
Thank you very much!!
GOOD MORNING ANGEL ~ Thanks for another POEM from the Dark Side ~ It makes us all SAD but I know it is CATHARTIC and it does enable us to understand your angst and how to pray for you ~ AMEN
VERSE 1. I agree our memories are permanent but we can can push them into our SUBCONSCIENCE for some of the time ? V 2. I am praying that you will find many RELAXING DAYS ~ AMEN V 3. Through Prayer & meditation you can be lifted up into a RELAXING SEVENTH HEAVEN ~ I know I can ~ especially on a RETREAT ~ Try one ? V 4. You are NOT alone CHRIS ~ You have your Family ~ Your Friends and lots of us on MPS (digest the comments) really love you and are Praying for you ! V 5. NO CHRIS You are NOT being OVERDRAMATIC You are just facing (and sharing) REALITY ~ NEVER GIVE IN !
Angela & I are praying that through the indwelling of the Holy Spirit you will be RELEASED from "PANIC DISORDER" AMEN Yours forever Tus Hemanos de Fe ~ ANGELA y BRIAN ~ Abrazos @@@@@@@
I really appreciate your kindness and understanding through all of this. You give some really good advice! This is a site where I gain much support and love from a lot of people and I am so thankful. Thanks for the prayers---Abrazos for you both Angela y Brian!!!!! Christina.
Wow! A remarkable piece!
I have much better earlier pieces like "Ive never told" but this day I just had to get it off my chest. Thanks so much for your support!!
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