Another week alone.
My loved one gone away,
Away to a Care Home.
Respite Care they call it.
Respite for who?
Respite for her?
Not really,
She is in her own world,
Her own world of dementia.
Respite for me?
Yes,
As it gives me a chance,
A chance to replenish my strength,
My sanity,
Myself back to me.
It is so sad
To be away from her,
From the woman I have loved,
Loved forever,
But it is needed.
Dealing with it,
This f*****g dementia
Is so hard,
Coping is becoming almost impossible.
Why has it happened?
Happened to her,
One of the kindest of people,
Who has helped all others,
Helped them throughout her life.
She has praised God all her life,
But when she needs God,
The God of Christianity,
He is not there,
Does not answer her prayers,
Or those who pray to him, for her,
So where the f**k are you God?
Are you another myth of life
Forced upon us by others,
By those with money and power?
Is Christianity just politics,
Politics in disguise?
Another week alone
That before long
Will become permanent,
As her dementia claims her,
Claims my loved one,
Into a world of hers,
Where I don’t exist.
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- Comment from author about the poem: My wife goes into a care home for one week a month, it is called Respite Care and gives me a chance to build up my resilience to deal with her dementia when she returns, it will not be long before I will not be able to cope and she will need permanent residential care. A sad time. Sorry for the 18 tick but it is what I call the dementia now. I would not wish it on anybody.
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If the future is to be an alone-ness then you are a big enough personality to make it YOUR kind of alone. You can fill your days with all sorts of company, associations, mischief and fun.
Change is a part of all our lives. You have adapted many times to changes in your life and this ones a scarey one, but you know you will adapt. You are a spiritual man and you have the strength of the trust in your personal belief. And that river.
Thank you d a, your words are so true and mean a great deal to me, My River will always be there for me.
Would I do the same if I was in you situation? Maybe. We know if we have an easy life, it's more than life just 'turning out' for us lucky - or favoured, or blessed (the words I prefer to use).
An Old Testament view mainly, is that if nothing much goes wrong, nice and cosy = blessed by God; and vice versa.
Thinking of you both still, and in prayers.
Thank you Orchi, blessed by God is the question that I am unsure about.
Thanks Gold. I was meaning that the Old Testament view is generally that if all is going well, and nice and cosy, then they considered they were blessed by God. If they had troubles, sufferings, etc, then they seemed to think the opposite. Yet 'good' and 'bad' can somehow work together in His purposes. Easy to say, I know. Anyone can SAY anything. A different matter to experience it.
The cruelist of things in my opinion G you're both in our prayers too.
Pray for your strength maybe that's all god can give us now.
Thinking of you
Thank you Andrew, god is there it is the religious beliefs I am struggling with. The support I get from friends both in this site and around me is great, it is a pity I cannot day the same for the Minister at my Church.
Yes you deserve better I recall the support you have shown him in the past...
He will have to answer to his own behavior G he should be there for both of you
I confess God and I have a personal relationship in as much as I do not attend a church I find it all too business like and political but I have faith in love and good which I belive is god's spirit in us all who embrace it.
GOOD MORNING FROM AUCKLAND (9pm Wednesday) we have made it home ! Love the melancholy VOICE & HORN it complements your sad poem ~ THANK YOU. Angela & I are still on the crest of a Wonderful Wave ~ but thats how it is @ 31 & 35 and in LOVE ! We don't know what the future has in store for us ? We Hope & Pray to have a Family & see our Grandchildren we are just at the PORTAL of LIFE & LOVE. Your love for JOYCE (despite everything) has always been an inspiration to us and always will be ! WE dont blame you for railing at GOD he gave and now has taken away and the Week of Separation must be as aweful as our Week of Togetherness has been perfect. But we will be 11,500 miles apart til OCTOBER ! We can empathise (to a degree) but our DAILY PRAYER for YOU & JOYCE is please dont lose your PRECIOUS FAITH ! When the chips are down *Where can we go but to the LORD ?* ~ AMEN !
Blessings & Love for YOU & JOYCE
ANGELA & BRIAN 🧡 🧡 🧡 🧡 🧡 🧡 🧡
Seven Hearts for extra LOVE this week ~ AMEN
Thank you for your kind words, strangely it is easier with the week of separation as I am only leading one life, not two as I do when Joyce is at home,
it is a beast that many of us already know only too well.. I for one, truly feel for you my friend and regret not having the answers that you so desperately seek... I sincerely hope you can rest, relax and regain some strength during this respite period.... Neville
Thank you Neville, I can get some peace but it gets harder every time to gain that relaxation.
Andy,
In essence, I agree with Neville’s comments!
*OUTBACK* used one of Groucho Marx’s quotes for his posting of the day.
For the past two years I’ve been reminding myself of another one of Groucho Marx’s quotes...
“I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.”
Each morning I remind myself of the quote and then seize the day! That is the best way I can make it better for myself and those around me!
Che sarà sarà!!
You’re doing your best...and that’s all you can do!
My love to Joyce and to you!
~Laura~🌻
Thank you Laura, those words of Groucho Marx make a lot of sense and I have said them myself.
One can either feel for you or feel with you.
I choose the latter,
P.S. My daughter is diagnosed as bipolar schizophrenia. While i live with her pain, she lives in pain
Thank you Suresh for your understanding. Most sorry about your daughter I am sure that she values your love for her.
So much has already been said and I endorse it all. A real tugging write.
Thank you Michael, much appreciated.
My friend my thoughts are with you all in this terrible situation you describe so succinctly. Went throughit to a degree with my Dad so I recognise some of the emotion you are suffering. May you all have as much peace and contentment as you can. Take Care
Thank you Moordy, your words are much appreciated.
Powerful and pure
Straight from core
Such raw emotions
I can only truly hope
With all of the spirit
On this page
Make those final days
Pass with ease
Thank you for sharing
So openly
Much peace and respect
Thank you Dan, those on this page are so supportive, as are you of course. I am honoured to be with a group of true friends.
As I with you and only mentioned this to someone yesterday. I was asked if I truly knew who I chat too after giving out my mailing address!
Many have come and gone on here but genuine always shine through, it's something we only know as only time will show it to you!
Now I wish I had said it more like that, this is another reason I would call you all more than friends!
More a tribe for me, no one depends but all know we are safe to express!
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