I have all you could wish for, like living a dream
A partner that has so much love, children that understand me
Yet I continue to feel unloved and it's not by them
So it must be still, something that sits within me
Driving alone to pick up the kids, listening to techno beats
My tears erupted as the first lines hit, then ran a few times
Was this actually a wish or dream, I have inside
It's not what is rooted and was making me cry
This came from that true wish that I just wanted to die
So I will write to this dark past, to give light from the future
Now sharing in the present to help us find balance
Asking for guidance to have the ability to change
For the only thing left is to go back to go forward
Remembering that to live is a wonderful achievement
Not just to throw away or let the drugs hide the feelings again & again
Nothing feels right but everything is okay, as I sit beside me again & again
Ready to face the shadow that can not cope, knowing somehow we give others hope
Yet when it comes to our soul we haven't listened once, each time that pattern repeats we let it go on
For me to truly become the observer, I must let go of what has never been willing done.
Now I'm writing to see if I can accept my own challenge, but I ask to feel no shame whatever happens.
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Author:
Poetic Dan (
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- Comment from author about the poem: Still absorbing my own thoughts and where to go, already failed but I'll keep giving it a go.
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Well penned friend.... never give up on hope
okay..................... N
What else do we know! Always appreciated have a great weekend my friend
you too now, ya hear....
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Yes facing is the way to control these unwanted feelings dear Dan - keep going and feel no shame in the way you take..........
Thank you Fay, each day I find and lose a bit of strength. There is hope in me that one day I'll listen
Always appreciated
Oh you'll listen - I admire your resilience and your pen - keep writing good friend.
That I deeply appreciate and try to use wisely.
Thank you for the support
When you face your fears and stand up to them they no longer become fears but enhance your strength as you go forward into that wonderful future that each moment will bring you in the future.
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