Wanting to love again
but am so dam scared.
My past often haunts me
I thought back then,
that they cared.
Guarding my heart
even though I want to feel,
my emotions
I keep to myself.
My love and devotion
is something,
I want to conceal.
Longing for someone
to just hold me,
in their arms.
But as soon
as I think of it,
here comes all the alarms.
Fighting with myself
I do,
then I don't
I know love is,
just something
that is no good,
for my health.
When your heart
has been broken,
and you have cried
so many tears.
Some part of yourself
just simply disappears.
Many have tried
but I just make an excuse.
Am not,
going to let my heart
take no more abuse.
So deep inside me
I know truly,
I will stand alone.
Maybe love
just ain't for me,
because it cuts
right down to the bone.
I guess
I will always,
crave that real true love.
Is this how
it all will end,
forever fighting myself.
When will my heart,
Finally mend.
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Author:
Tammy Smith Sarazin (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: Just another poem about my heart and life, that unholy love..
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Comments5
Very nicely written. It's going to be hard for you to let someone into your heart again Raven, but maybe do it slowly, by becoming good friends first, and later let them get closer, when you know you can trust both them and your feelings !
I thank you fine sir, am kinda talking with someone I knew like 16 years ago but everytime he wants to see me or anything I find myself making excuses...
Maybe its time to bite the bullet, meet up somewhere very public maybe, where you feel safe, and see how it goes from there. Little steps start a decent walk !
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Have to agree with Justa_Geezer. Learning to trust someone else is just as hard to trust your own heart. Take a step back and just let friendships take root. Then someday when you'll feel it's time, then start to think about love again. Don't pressure yourself to feel you have to find love. If it's right, you'll know it.
Yes, I agree.. I was just telling Justa-Geezer that I was kinda talking to someone but I keep pulling away..
I am sure that the right person is out there for you Tammy, I hope that person is there for you soon.
Andy
I do thank you fine sir..
Oohhh, love's for us - you and I. Was it that long, 16 years? You mean me?! lol. But my (imaginary) dog, Fido, never lets me have any 'excitement' and nothing 'hot'! lol.
Your to funny orchidee!!! but you know it is you...
Fido keeps me from swooning if there is anything too 'hot'. lol. I will put him out the back garden a while, and let my hair down. He won't know!
Well done Raven, it’s good to write from your heart! I hope you can bite that bullet and give it a go! Tell him if he’s not good to you the MPS will write about him!
LOL, your to funny!!
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