Cannot Sleep Again.
It is 2:00am I am still awake on a winter’s morning.
Once again i cannot sleep, i have been up all night.
I am just staring out of my misty bedroom window.
Only to see its pouring down with rain again outside.
The medication appears not to be helping me at all.
Meant to calm my mind, give me a little inner peace.
Possibly I am crazy, I feel like I have lost all control.
I am trying but it gets more difficult to get any sleep.
Relentless verbal kicking is going round in my mind.
Some of the voices battle to be on the winning side.
There is a lonely quiet voice asking for a bit of kind.
It’s drowned out with the banging noise deep inside.
Is it right or is it wrong, I am not sure if I want to care.
There must be a better life then me just existing here.
The mirror tells me it's over, no need for me to be here.
The torment just builds and becomes so hard to bare.
They speak to me and saying in time its will be alright.
It will get better; you will come out on the other side.
Therapist manual in hand, they tell me even more lies.
I have reached the point at last, i must finally decide.
Is there a answer to the ongoing car crash in my head.
Could there be an answer to find some internal peace.
Would I quieten the lunatic voices if I was stone dead.
Maybe then after all this time I can finally go to sleep.
Nataiella .
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Tobani / Nataiella (Pseudonym) (
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That happens to me as well sometimes. Haven’t found an effective solution 🙏🏻🕊
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You too and you’re welcome 🙏🏻🕊
Can you take some exercise during the day, even taking a walk? It may help, so that you actually feel tired at night.
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Emotional, pulling at the reader for understanding this write takes the simple process of sleep and works it into the internal workings of the mind and the questioning of sanity. An existential question that revolves around the issue of psychological entropy. Nicely written
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We are conditioned write from the off to think, feel and behave this way or that .. & when, for whatever reason, the inevitable happens and we are required or forced to deviate, many of us immediately go all wobbly .. I personally think its best to let it happen & run with it until it re-writes itself .. sleep, or rather the lack of it is a good example of this principle .. I guess what I am trying to say is that many of us try too hard to put right what is not necessarily wrong in the first place .. Wishing you a better night tonight .. Neville
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Here's my two penneth - Lips closed, shout at them continuously 'shut the fuck up' until you are exhausted - then focus on the patterns or none forming inside your eyelids....
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Excellent write
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You're welcome
Powerful work. I relate.
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That car crash may be in your head Tobani but just leave it there and put it in a box in your mind and throw aways the key. Peace and calmness can be found in many ways, with me it is music and nature.
Andy
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Nothing worse than feeling exhausted and not being able to sleep because your mind is running amok. I had a really bad spell of this six months ago. Relaxation
Music and some meditation has really improved the situation. Your poem is so relatable Tobani. .
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Oh, how very, VERY beautiful! I love it! Pardon me if that's unacceptable, please, but I do. How deliciously rendered with a palpable poignancy and such exquisite imagery! Thank you very much for sharing! I've both tinnitus and answers, but only if you truly want them. Thank you again!
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You're very welcome, my pleasure.
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