Validation

Christina8

I saw a picture of him today

and was reminded of all the bad.

The terrible memories of him growing up.

As a child I never stopped to question my dad.

 

But I always sought his validation

even without consciously knowing it.

I hated what he was and what he did

As I got older I couldn't even tell if he was lit.

 

Now not wanting to know his grandchildren

Is what really crosses the line.

His abuse and alcoholism wasn't enough?

Now I see the man doesn't have a spine.

 

Better off without him any way you slice it.

I used to be jealous of girls with normal dads.

He still prefers the bottle over us "kids"

But we've all had to let go of him--so sad!

  • Author: Christina (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: September 18th, 2017 07:01
  • Comment from author about the poem: I haven\\\'t written about my dad in many months--said I was done, but it gives newcomers a perspective on my life.
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  • BRIAN & ANGELA

    Thanks CHRIS it makes me so so sad because if ever I have a Daughter ~ I want her to be just like you ~ You are lovely ! It is hard for me to comprehend because My Parents are the loveliest and most caring People I know. It must have been hard for you to write this ~ I pray you found it cathartic ! Cathartic Cuddles from BRIAN "Your Best Friend". Please check KIM 2. ~ Specially for YOU !

    • Christina8

      What was hard to do was leave out the nasty things I could've said, but it's just not worth it. Now that poem got it out of my system for a while! You are so lucky to have 2 parents who love you!! You'll be a great dad someday! And i thought Kim 2 was adorable. Bestie Hugs-Christina

    • Michael Edwards

      Sad poem beautifully written - long distance hug from me too.

      • Christina8

        Thank you Michael for the compliment--long distance hug back! Thanks again!

      • Goldfinch60

        Such a sad write, Dads should always be there for their children.

        • Christina8

          Yes, dads should be there for their kids and grandkids but for some, addiction is more powerful than parental instinct. Thanks for the kind words.

        • Poetic Dan

          I done a piece call my roots
          I see we come from the same
          But at least we are making the change

          Thank you for sharing and showing we are not alone in this feeling inside.

          • Christina8

            No, a lot of us on MPS come from a similar background. Thanks for the encouraging words!

            • Poetic Dan

              I would like to thank you for helping me find my words yesterday for my post today. Hope you have a wonderful day

            • orchidee

              Sensitive write Christina.

              • Christina8

                Thank you Orchidee!

              • Fay Slimm.

                The harm a negligent parent can do to young minds - so sad this outpouring Christina - big hugs to you for sharing such troubled upbringing my friend. XXXXX

                • Christina8

                  Thank you so much for your thoughtfulness and kind words. They certainly mean a lot!

                • WL Schuett

                  Sensitive and sad , yet brave hope writing this poem helps ,such an ordeal you've lived through

                  • Christina8

                    Yes, but in the end I hope I've become the best parent I can be. Thanks so much for your kind words, WL. They are appreciated!

                  • Simple-Man87

                    incredible.. just incredible.. you brought back emotions long since thought about with this one. Very well done.

                    • Christina8

                      Thank you! I hope I didn't evoke too much emotion. But I appreciate your kind words!

                      • Simple-Man87

                        You were perfect.. it was perfect.. Thank you for sharing

                      • myself and me

                        I can fully understand your anger, hope one day you could find the strength to forgive him if only you could understand his struggle and pain. Today I happen to read a quote from a famous English writer, Samuel Johnson, ""He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man."
                        Love.

                        • Christina8

                          Thank you so much m&m for your insight. I was able to forgive him this past December so I could get past the hurt. I wrote about it. That is an awesome quote by the way!!!
                          Thanks again for your kind words of wisdom!

                        • rrodriguez

                          Sad poem Christina, but you know that although it is sad, you have your dignity and your children intact. Be blessed. Excellent poem!

                          • Christina8

                            Thank you so much for your kind words. Yes, I am past all that and focus on love and family. Thanks again!

                            • rrodriguez

                              I invite you to read the poem I wrote about hurricane Irma. Now Maria is out there. Wow, what else is going to hit us?

                            • ron parrish aka wordman

                              well,i hate it for the grand children,lol,mine think i hung the moon

                              • Christina8

                                That is really cool! Thanks for the read! I appreciate it!



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