Holding My Breath


Sometimes I can't find the rhyme

Feels like I'm running out of time


Trying to find the source of my anxiety

Wondering what in the hell is wrong with me


Feeling like I'm drowning alone in a lake

No one to help me but me for my sake


I used to write of love and though true

It's hard to do when you're down and blue


I'm scared to death, I don't know why

Just holding my breath, I can't even cry


Scarier than any horror flick you've seen

That is what panic disorder for me has been

  • Author: Christina (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: June 20th, 2018 00:11
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • Michael Edwards

    This reaches out Christina - full of pathos an well expressed.- I feel for you.

    • Christina8

      Thank you so much Michael, I appreciate it!

    • Frogspoetry

      I go through the same thing Christina.I have chronic severe anxiety and panic attacks,also major depression.There is a way out of this,even though it doesn't seem like it,there will is a saving grace,God.

      • Christina8

        I agree. Thanks for your wonderful message. I hope yours gets better!

      • Goldfinch60

        A very emotive write Christina, I do hope that you will find a way to breathe again.

        • Christina8

          Thanks very much Andy. I appreciate the reply!

        • orchidee

          I have similar, though lesser, experiences of this. Maybe if we can pinpoint just what it is that is causing us to be anxious. It may not the be immediate thing. It may be something future, or even past.
          Meanwhile - Ohh I tried holding my breath 24 hours one day. Erm, I did not feel very well for it! Heehee.

          • Christina8

            You are silly! Thanks very much orchi!

          • Fay Slimm.

            This touches down to the core dear Christina - - - sending you some big Cornish hugs. xxxxxx

            • Christina8

              And I appreciate it so much! Thank you!

            • BRIAN & ANGELA

              Good Morning ~ Sister Christine thanks for a very poignant poem and sharing some of your anxieties with your MPS Friends. My advice has always been Spiritual ~ Pray ~ Count Your Blessings and I am praying for you 24/7. I am pleased you can trust us Chris and feel free to share your anxieties ~ Read Psalm 23 ~ I am sure it will help @ this time and ask your Church group to pray for you. We have a Prayer Chain in our Church and it really does work. Always remember that "Underneath You and Round About You ~ are the Precious Arms of JESUS ~ AMEN !" Spiritual HUGS ~ TUS HERMANOS BRIAN & ANGELA @@@@@@@

              • Christina8

                Thank you Brian. Although those things help they do not cure. I really do find your replies helpful and I appreciate the time you put into them! Thanks so much! Spiritual hugs back to you and Angela

                • BRIAN & ANGELA

                  THANKS CHRIS ~ I understand what you are saying and speaking as a NURSE ! We all have minor ailments which we take medication for ~ such as arthritis ~ the medication eases the pian ~ BUT ~ it doesn\'t cure. Prayer and the study of God\'s Word works like that for people with anxiety and depression it calms the mind and soul and make life bearable ~ but generally does not heal and the symptoms come back again. There is of course SPIRITUAL HEALING and RELEASE MINISTRY which DOES HEAL ~ but that is much bigger and specialist SUBJECT as you know. In the UK they are legalising CANNABIS OIL for epilepsy etc ~ It is legal in CANADA. Take care ~ i hope my comments comp;ement yours ~ HUGS BRIAN & ANGELA @@@@@@@

                • Andrew Charles Forrest

                  Christina remember you are not alone
                  I think alot of people here express there anciety through peotry
                  You've done this very well here
                  Keep expressing and writing
                  Take Care

                  • Christina8

                    Thanks so much for expressing your thoughts and views! I appreciate it!

                  • Heartwriter

                    Wishing you better brighter days ahead.

                    • Christina8

                      Thanks so much heartwriter, it is appreciated!

                    • Laura🌻

                      I’m sorry you have to deal with such pain! Anxieties are so debilitating! Sending you good thoughts and hugs! Hope you’ll feel better soon!


                      • Christina8

                        Thanks Laura! I do appreciate it!

                      • willyweed

                        your pain is well expressed. ww

                        • Christina8

                          Thank you ww! It is appreciated.

                        • Poetic Dan

                          Wow I'm back in that boat too, I'll keep patching it up with you.
                          Beautifully expressed as always

                          • Christina8

                            Thanks Dan. Hope you feel better too. Appreciated as always!

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