Goldfinch60

Changing Days.



Each day is changing,

Each day she gets worse.

What helped her yesterday,

Does not help today.

I do everything for her,

But she is just not aware,

Not aware of what I am doing,

Not aware of the pain in my heart

As she moves further from me

And into her own world,

That world called dementia.

The system tries to help

But it cannot see the pain

That is dragging me down,

And dragging me away from my life.

Each day I have to give more for her,

And each day, I have less for me.

And each day I am grateful,

Grateful to be able to write,

To write these words,

These word on this page.

Comments8

  • dusk arising

    Hold onto your sanity fine sir! Your writing is a window of your soul and i feel for you.
    Advice eludes me today, saddened as i am to read your piece.

    • Goldfinch60

      Thank you for your words da much appreciated.

    • orchidee

      We can't answer some (or many?) 'Why's', can we? Easy enough to give a pat answer, especially if we're not involved ourselves.
      Thinking of you both. 🙂

      • Goldfinch60

        Thank you Orchi, most kind.

      • Michael Edwards

        So sad Andy - little I can say but a fine heart tugging write nonetheless

        • Goldfinch60

          Thank you Michael, it is hard but writing pulls me into another world, as does music of course.

        • Heartwriter

          So sorry Goldie! She is so lucky to have such a fine man. I wish there was a cure. Take care!

          • Goldfinch60

            You are so kind Heartwriter, I really appreciate it.

          • Laura🌻

            Andy,
            Good morning!
            This one has made my cry! The tears are rolling down my cheeks! It is so, so sad to watch your loved one slip farther away each and every day! Good thoughts I send your way! Continue writing and let the music continue to soothe your heartache!

            ~Laura~

            • Goldfinch60

              Hi Laura,

              I can understand the tears but we can still manage to laugh with and at each other.

              The music and words take me away to another place.

            • BRIAN & ANGELA

              Thanks ANDY for showcasing Kathleen again ~ this song requires her pathos. I can understand why it complements the poignancy of your experience. I can EMPATHISE not because I am facing similar but because of LOVE ! When our loved ones suffer we suffer with them because we can't suffer for them. Being separated from ANGELA by 11,500 miles (and 11 hours !) is hard but we can phone & Skype. Your POEM encourages me to believe that whatever happens to US in this life our TRUE LOVE will survive ! ANGELA has made her presence felt today by POSTING "Spanish Haiku" and a FUSION on Languages ! Thanks for such a POSITIVE POST ~ It lifts us all onto higher ground and gives us all confidence for the Future ~ AMEN ~ Yours BRIAN & ANGELA

              • Goldfinch60

                Thank you Brian, it is so hard at times.

              • Candlewitch

                dear Goldfinch,

                hang on tight to your writing, music and good memories! your writing goes far in touching others. I am glad and comforted by your presence here! I wish for you all the strength you need!

                *hugs, Cat

                • Goldfinch60

                  Thank you so much Cat, those on here are so supportive.

                • Poetic Dan

                  This is so powerful my friend
                  Thank you for sharing

                  • Goldfinch60

                    Thank you Dan, most kind.



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