This is a story about me
- the girl I am & the girl I want to be.
I'm the girl right next to you,
you will not see
I'm the girl who doesn't know
what to say
I'm the girl who wants to be loved
& can't find love.
I'm the girl who dreams a lot
but is too scared to follow them
I'm the girl in the middle of the crowd
wished to be at home
I'm the girl who wants to be everything she is not.
I'm the girl who wants to be
BRAVE
FREE
PROUD
FUNNY
and sometimes loud.
I want to be someone who say what she thinks
and someone who believes in herself.
I'm the girl who wants to be happy
and is it not really
even everyone think she is alright.
I'm the girl who is not talking about her problems
till t
there solved.
I'm the girl who cries at night
and smiles during the day.
I know its my fault.
I could be brave.
I could be proud of myself.
I could be sunshiny...
- if i wouldn't be that scared.
I'm afraid of losing someone if i#m
too much me.
I'm afraid of open up
and show who I am.
I'm afraid of what people will think about me
and how they will see me.
Cause I'm not thin.
not beautiful
or pretty.
I can be ugly and cruel
and sometimes not even nice.
I'm afraid of being alone in the end.
Maybe I will never be 27
life can be harsh
and beautiful at once.
So I lie awake at night and think about all what happened to me.
All the laughs I had
all the tears I cried
all the countries I saw
and people I met
all the small things I got
and all the stuff I lost.
I had broken moments
and amzing times.
And it makes me the girl who I am
- and the girl I never will be.
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Author:
Kat (
Offline) - Published: September 14th, 2017 17:36
- Category: Short story
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Comments9
You're the girl I see,
You think you are average, un-noticeable, you are not. These words, and the comments to come from others, will reassure you.
Great write.
"I want to be someone who say what she thinks" LOL so who's thinking is it you tell us of everytime you write - yours of course. Great tongue in cheek writing...... or was this you at fourteen?
English is not my mother language, maybe beacuse of this it is a little cheeky 🙂 and no it's not me at fourteen.
Kat.... aha now i see my mistake! I thought i was writing to the other lady called Kat on here. I have seen much of her writing here so my response was tailored to that. However, i do apologise for what may seem to be inappropriate comments. Sorry!
You paint a very good self-portrait here.
Beautiful writing and welcome to this site.
Thanks for you lovely comment!
I'm betting that you're more the girl you want to be than you realize. Kat, you're top notch in my book. ; )
Veilen dank fur Ihr erstes Gedict ~ Willkommen bei MPS. Your POEM is very self~deprecating I am sure you are not like the picture you paint ! We all have problems and we all want to be BRAVE ~ FREE ~ PROUD ~ FUNNY ! MPS is a great site and we all lift each other up ~ OK ~ Thanks for sharing ~ thinking of you Praying for YOU ~ BRIAN (UK)
With that courage and openness about yourself, you already are what you would like to be. Time for you to rejoice!
Welcome to MPS, Kat! Herzlich Willkommen!
I like your writing. Straight, from the heart, the way you feel it. Your writing is good, with a lot of promise. And so are you! Keep writing, and we all help you along!
You are already that girl - my poetic sweetheart - and just stay as you are.
Good write, you can only be yourself and from what you have written you should be proud of yourself. Welcome to MPS.
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